didn't wake up feeling crappy...

that's a start right?

Waking up & not feeling crappy...I wonder if it has to do with the fact that I finally got paid after waiting 15 days, hence relieving me of some anxiety? Or maybe my body finally decided NOT to hate me for at least one day...?! lol.

anywho, I got a call from the divorce attorney this afternoon AND the deadline soon approaches for everything to be finalize. According to him, as soon as he receives my "answer" and paperwork, he files then sets a trial date and boom 2 weeks later we're a dissolved disunion. sad, if you stop to think about it all. but then again "it is what it is," right. that's the popular saying anyway..................I don't think I'll be stopping any time soon though.

As life would have it last night, while I waited to meet with my hunky beau for dinner, I began playing catch up with the season 6 of Grey's Anatomy and ironically enough the episode was about the 5 stages of grief and how we all handle them differently. Here goes, let's check mark together, shall we?

1. Denial - I would say I definitely went through this stage for a very long time. So much so that I just found out that that little red, chinese massage parlor on bird & 90 something is a "happy endings" massage place AND guess what that's where he would go EVERY effn Friday...I'm here thinking (in denial) he needs a stress reliever when what he really wanted was a goddamn hand job...the nerve. CHECK!
2. Anger - obviously, I've reached that stage. I'm not one of those crazy psycho chicks that's going to key ur car or break a windshield. But the thought of my own naivete truly angered and irritated me. so yea, CHECK!
3. Bargaining - Yup, this stage probably came before the ANGER but I'll admit it. In the hopes of salvaging our marriage even while he was living with this woman I would still innocently offer to make him a warm meal or wash his clothes. All in the hopes that he would see how much better "our" life or life with me was. Yup, CHECK again!
4. Depression - eh, luckily, I can say I've got a strong support system which includes my doggy, my mom, dad, brothers & my girls. With their help (and loving distractions) I didn't really fall into this stage. Besides, this is when my own personal knight managed to step in and save me once again; like that time my car ran out of gas and he left work & showed up with a tank of gas. ♥
5. Acceptance - This is where I've been for quite some time, but really really the call yesterday with the State Attorney and today's conversation with the Divorce attorney truly puts ACCEPTANCE at the forefront of my mind. All that other stuff is in the past. It happend - the good and the bad. And now, without fail I'm on another path seemingly happy with myself, my family and friends and love interest.

Yea, my tummy doesn't hurt so much anymore. Noodle makes me happy and comfy, I think. Is it strange that this all happend so quickly?

ok enough thinking for one day, my brain is tingling!

xoxo always karla