Ok so here goes...A few weeks ago I wrote about how my marriage did not work out & there was no chance of it EVER working out. As a result, there was an out pour of how strong I am for doing and sharing and now nearly 3 months later I begin to date someone and mention it in my blog and I'm the bad girl? WTF? Talk about a dbl standard. The freakin guy violates the sacrament of marriage b/c he got an itch, goes off to live with ONE of the women and I have to sit and wait around?!
I mean really, although I hate to argue and disagree with my elders (b/c they're usually right), this time I'm standing my ground and saying, "it's isn't 1987 and he isn't the only man in the sea!" I can fish, I can swim and I can probably fly if I wanted to!
Shoot I remember when one of my exes & I broke up, we were together for nearly 5 years. after we broke, I was single for a short period of time, then I dated this awesome guy (we're still friends to this day), we were both young and going in different directions, I was going to FIU hanging out with my girls - enjoying my youth! So much so that I chose for myself to not have a declared bf. Revolutionary. It was during this time that I truly got a chance to figure myself out. TO know what I wanted... unfortunately, what I wanted to was to party, get wasted and hoook up! LMAO. So yea I was fun, but it didnt really work out in my favor in the long run. School suffered, parents didnt sleep and eventually that everyday link to all those "friends" is only through facebook. which is cool and not a total loss of what my life once was....but anyway, I'm writing b/c isn't life about reaching the top, falling down and getting right back up!? Re-inventing myself/yourself with every step (up or down)??
Long story short, I find myself at similar crossroads...newly separated from a long term relationship, back in the game and at FIU finishing up what I started so long ago. Except this time I get to use that thing called "hindsight" and more than likely although I am the same person, I'll make different choices.
Maybe one of those choices is to date someone now who shares the same views for the future, we can marry or not. I can serial date for the time being or not. I can also decide to successfully finish all the way through to my masters and live in harmony with my future husband, 2 kids and my cute chocolate lab in some comfortable house that suits all our needs for as long as Momma Earth wants us here!
The point is- don't judge or assume you know the present if you aren't in it. Ask questions, get involved and be supportive. If you don't agree, then do what you have to do you...That's all i'm saying.
thank goodness for blogs and venting...I didn't need that cig to bring me down after all.
xoxo always karla
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